Im back

i just hate to be someone who is so down hearted and people look down on me due to my sincerety. i love my family, yes i do, and i've been wondering what am i supposed to do so that i we can get back together as one. too many people sacrificed for us and yet we are not more than appreciating. i really can say much now. i cant help anyone when i cant even hep myself. i dont wish to be in this state but the surrounding made me down. too much things to think off when im alone. i feel like theres no one that i cn turn to at times when im down. im not a loner but i can always be.

the best is i cn just pray hard on whats gonna happen the next day each time i go to sleep. i noe i might be stupid in acting and thinking this way. but i just cant change. i love me for who i am and i hope people cn understand that to be someone much better than who the person is just too difficult. even if there is much improvement in a short time, probably the person is faking and cheating on his/herself. im trying my best to be myself so that i cn learn from my mistakes and that should be the way.

getting involve in relationships make me realise that i can be a good girlfriend but not a good wife. I noe this sounds weird but i just hate to play around in relationships. even if i do. i make sure i dont contact that guy forever. admitting my own mistakes and t give in is what make a relationship last long. The word is : TRUST. if u dont have trust then negative things can lead ur relationship go haywire for ur loved ones.

Afterall, if my family can accept me for a who i am, treasure me for good. I dont think no guy cant do the same thing. so, love my family first before u love me. afterall, i wont change for a guy who has no assurance to be my husband. thank u.

hopefully things change as i believe in miracle. i love all of u who care for me. i just dont noe to whom i should turn to. sorry bt tis is wat im feeling rite now.

sincerely,
me